Direct FREAKING OUTlet
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
I finally did it--- kept my appointment with a local much recommended psychic---- was thrilled that the session was being taped,,, very emotional-- wanted to share with Frank----- NOTHING RECORDED!!! What a disappointment----
But the reading was phenomenal, comforting, and very personal---- lots of tears--- She said she could see Chris next to me, very strong and powerful---- that he was at peace and needed me to make peace with what had happened-- that it wasn't so much the events of one tragic night, but the culmination of bad choices, on his part--- it was about the "amount" of something he had ingested----- stupidity--- and he was so so sorry for the pain he has caused--- he loves his family and goes to great lengths to make his presence felt--- we need to know he finally "gets it!"---
She knew music was his passion,,, how alone he felt here---- how he touched so many lives--- she knew some specific details of the people who were with him, which I believe to be true-- their race--- so much more I can't relate on this blog--- She told me things about Philip, Frank, and my future--- including a trip across water in the next two years,,, and a long road trip in seven months!!!
India , or Australia,,, here we come!!! She mentioned spiritual orbs -- very common --This may seem very general ,, but she definately hit on some very specific things that only have meaning to me----
She also said he blames nobody , absolutely nobody but himself--- and he is so sorry!!! This is but a tiny snippet of an hour long meeting----well worth it!!!
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Men & Jen in Black !!
Philip, Jason, Jeremy, and Jennah, on the occasion of Jeremy and Denise's wedding-- was it two years ago???
Just occurred to me that my son number one, Mike, will be thirty this month, and my baby, Philip, just turned twenty---- What a decade that was!!! By son number one, I mean Michael was my firstborn--- When Frank and I married, we each gained two wonderful sons-- Philip doesn't like me to talk about him, so I respect his privacy--- but he was a little put out that I didn't mention his birthday was in December, when I was speaking about it being an auspicious month! Sorry about that Philip---
This was such a happy day-- not only was the wedding fabulous, but Philip was so happy to spend time with his big brothers----- With all our busy lives, and fractured families, those times are rare---so all the more precious---
Sunday, January 14, 2007
"You Are a Child of the Universe"
Desiderata--- I love that poem-- it has accompanied me since the days of Acadia University---- when I bought the poster and hung it on my dorm wall-- for comfort, guidance, inspiration---
Thought about it tonight, especially the lines
"Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. "
It's so hard to know when to let events unfold---- or when to nudge them along!!
Still can't figure that one out-
Saturday, January 13, 2007
To the left, the very cluttered view from my bed-- into the hall at the head of the stairs,,Where many a night I have fastened my gaze in the hope that I would catch a vision of Chris coming home, hear the door close, Billy's tail wagging, and his footsteps headed towards the bathroom, just off to the right--- thinking that if I tried hard enough, he would appear , as they do on soap operas or movies---
I need to hold on to the memory of his coming home --
tonight he stands majestically at the head of the stairs---- The painting from Beth feels somewhat like a homecoming----- Her parents delivered it to us from Ottawa--- but it didn't really originate there-- it was truly inspired---- through Beth-She named it 25, 26----
I thought it was because Chris was 25
when he died on April 26----
No, She was 25 when she finished it on April 26!!!
How could she have known the significance of the archer--- it was the poem by Kahlil Gibran that inspired my wedding message to Michael---- and the colours---- my colours-- so thank-you Beth,, and thank you Chris---- When I looked up the meaning of "inspired", - to fill with an animating, quickening, or exalting influence--- there was an unexpected description---"to breathe life into or upon" Welcome home!!
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Eastlink--- What's Up???
Haven't been able to access my email server, although obviously I have internet service--- when I try to check my mail, it "times out"---- Time Out???
Isn't that the newest fad in childhood disciplinary measures---
I'm going to count to three-- one, two,,,, two and a half,, two and three quarters,, two and five -sixths----- Yep, I've seen and heard this--- three never comes--- I digress---
I want to check my mail--
Haven't I been chastised enough?? For what??? I dunno, but I promise I won't do it again--- this time out is pissing me off!!! Tomorrow I'm going to call Eastlink and give them a piece of my mind--- what little left there is,,, don't think I can spare a piece--- but I am going to phone and enquire courteously----- BEFORE I RESORT TO VULGARITIES &*^*&^&^^)&) !!! Watch out Eastlink!!!
On a happier note, the picture is Dawson, Jason's son---who spent a good part of Saturday with us - and Arielle and Austin---- We took them bowling, then watched a few movies and ate pizza,,, well, not pizza, garlic fingers,,, we noticed at our last event,, the kids remove all the "healthy' toppings, anything vegetable,, whilst the side order of garlic fingers disappeared within seconds--- so cut to the chase, ,, just order the GF.--
Speaking of vulgarities,,, I was going to blog about the Australian winter we're having-!!! In this topsy-turvy world, the south is having snowstorms and we're in double digit warmth!!! Whodda thunk?? I supppose I should be concerned about the environmental effects---
BUT I LOVE IT!!!
I heard on the news that cherry blossoms were starting to bloom in places they just shouldn't be appearing in the middle of winter,,, so I googled "cherry blossoms"---
BIG MISTAKE----- DON'T TRY IT--
UNLESS YOU ARE A HOT BLOODED HORNY HOMOSAPIEN!!
Monday, January 01, 2007
Bling! Bling !!!
Nope, Didn' t get any for Christmas,,,,
Raising kids for the past thirty years, and never succumbed to the lure of Atari, Nintendo, Play Station, x-Box, or whatever the latest technology---
But Now- in our GOLDEN years,,, we (Frank & I) are in full- blown addiction---
to the blasted video game Bejeweled!!
It has taken over our ever increasing waking moments-
We fight over whose turn it is----
the dishes mount--
the laundry increases---
the dust mites propagate--
and still we sit bedazzled by the thrill of just one more game!!!