Phew!!!

I made a conscious decision to focus on the positives-- the wondrous bounties my children and theirs have brought me-- Philip was already here, having spent the night so his "I love you, mom" started the day off perfectly-(actually afternoon,, I slept in) Mike called from Halifax-just knowing he and his family are within driving distance makes everyday special--- Jennah brought Lexy over, bearing much appreciated luxury bath items! Seeing the love between her and Lexy is so gratifying and fulfilling, words can't describe! Jeremy came by with flowers---I didn't want a repeat performance of last year's complete breakdown when he hugged me!! So I steeled myself for his embrace, and just savoured the feeling of love---- Jason had phoned earlier in the week from Alberta,, and Austin had spent the night before at our house--- I got through--but today my "muscles" ache from the effort of trying not to focus on the one who got away!! I love all you guys so much,, thank you for bringing so much joy and happiness to my life--- you are my life----