"A Tale of Two ...."
Emotions-- "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times"---
Thursday night was the best-- we had all of the grandchildren, minus Alex and Madison, up for supper and gifts--- Christmas is such madness, they get so many presents- to avoid the frenzy and get in some quality time makes sense--- they'll remember the togetherness long after who gave what gift---
Maxing out the credit cards, relying on overdraft protection---- not so great--- but this too shall pass!
My strength was always mathematics--- predictable, analytical, logical-----A positive cancels a negative and inequalities can be turned into equalities--- Not so this time of year--- Positive two (Austin & Lexy) doesn't clear Negative two (Mom & Chris) In fact, joy somehow multiplies sorrow- their absence is deeply felt--- Christmas was alway Mom's time of year-- She loved watching us open the too many gifts she'd buy--- she'd tease and torture us with anticiapation- and she looked forward to sharing dinner---- And Chris,, I miss him everyday--- and in the most tender moments with Austin, there is sadness- It's funny how joy and sorrow can dwell together in the same heart at the same time, but I am thankful for the joy----- maybe it's more like a teeter-totter--- and there is a balance--- Gotta get busy preparing for the Christmas dinner which we have on the 24-- Merry Christmas to all---
posted by NanNan at 12:31 PM
8 Comments:
Wonderful post - how true. I too miss mom and Chris, and Christmas brings back so many fond memories.
Looking forward to seeing you guys tomorrow.
I know this is a very hard time of year for you, and your family. But please know that we care, and love you all so much.
Love Cheryl
It's strange how when we are happy we can someimes feel so sad, and it can be hard to explain or express how you are feeling. It might sound silly to some, but there is a song called "When the Rain Falls" by Zeta Bytes, I really like the song and I think that it's lyrics speak true for alot of things...this is hte chours and the second verse.
"When the rain falls
It’s like heaven’s crying
When the name’s all
The difference that there is
Cause tears are
The same when they are trying to grow something good
Out of all the pain
There’s no difference between the teardrops and the rain.
I know you proudly say
That I’m just talking crazy
To think of life that way
Means that I’m confused
There’s happy and there’s sad
But maybe yes just maybe
The sadness can make the happiness more true"
Love you Lots Aunt Sue
Tammie
It is so true how Joy and sorrow come together . I am glad that you guys had a great night and very happy that Austin can give you joy to help with the sorrow . :) He loves you and papa so much and I know enjoys all the times that he spends with you both ! Hope your supper today is great . Merry Chrismas , Love you very much - M & T
I can relate to this. I have been struggling with finding a balance too, between missing the traditions of my old life with Max and trying to create new ones with Todd. Sometimes, I just have to find a quiet place to ponder how much things have changed. And sometimes I just have to accept that change happens whether you want it or not. So, let us have a Bittersweet Christmas, and really savour the brief moments of joy.
Love to you,
Michelle
Merry Christmas, Nan!!! =)
MERRY MERRY MERRY... darling Nan, to you and your lovely family.
mailed you... did you check your mail?
love H.
Thanks for all the good wishes-
The dinner was great,
Tammie, that song sounds spot on! I'm going to look it up-
Mikki-- Bittersweet-- good word! Hope your day was wonderful as you pioneer new traditions! Can't wait to hear how the day went-
Thanks Mandy-How we savour the moments with Austin,, even when he's not here!!
HB- Merry Christmas to you!
H-haven't checked my email for a week-- thanks for the nudge!
Funnyface- it must have been difficult without Tammie-- hope you had a great day-
and Connie, thank God for you!!Gotta talk more about that despair- How did your birthday dinner go?
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