Happy ??? Mother's Day

Isn't she beautiful, our mom? Bombarded by mother's day- radio, tv, stores, impossible to escape, so why try?Up to 3 years ago, I mainly related the day to my mother, but after losing Chris, it took on a more painful meaning- assessing my own role as mother and falling short- feelings of guilt, regret, remorse, and anguish.Wishing I had been a better mother, but sometimes the lessons we learn come too late-I honour Chris by loving his child, and showing him the unconditional and all empowering love that I wish I had shown Chris. And it brings me some measure of peace and an indissoluble bond with his spirit. And the third perspective I have is extreme pride at seeing the wonderful mother my daughter has become. It seems so natural for her to be a mother- I miss mom, more as time erases the difficult times, and I think of her with tenderness, compassion, and love- and I've even laughed thinking about some of the scrapes we got ourselves in and out of. I guess this post covers the therapy part- This is the way I picture her now- Reunited with her mom, and so the cycle continues------------