AussiesNan

Motorcycle Madness....

2009-09-18T09:42:00.007-03:00

Remember the "olden" days when all things evil were associated with the M word--mayhem, mischief, murder and motorcycles!! Nowadays, the cyclists are white-haired, balding, Tim Horton's drinking seniors---that's me!!! And I do find myself looking much too long at those M in black leather,, wondering , wishing, just maybe there's an M in my future???

Scandalous??? NOT

2009-09-17T20:32:00.004-03:00

No disrespect to Roman Catholics out there,, but I can't understand why they keep calling the story of Father Cutie (yes, that's his name, really, I'm not kidding, google it) a SCANDAL,,, pictures surfaced of him canoodling with a woman,,,did you hear me--- woman-- adult female!! A modern day hero, breaker of stereotypical molds---- and might I add,,, not hard to look at-- Way to go Father!!!

You should be "embraced" by RC hierarchy -touted as the new look of priesthood---guaranteed increased membership,, maybe even mine!!!

Toedipping--

2009-09-17T16:41:00.003-03:00

Have never been able to plunge in----always admired those who could dive headfirst into our cold Atlantic oceans, lakes, and pools--but I am missing the cleansing therapy blogspot affords! and interaction with amazing people, not possible through facebook--- So today I dip in one toe,,,,, ewwww,,it's cold!!!

Of course this is not MY leg, as evidenced by previous photo-it is much too sleek and cleanly shaven,,,no varicose or spider veins, cellulite,,,

"Where am I supposed to sleep?"

2008-09-24T11:30:00.004-03:00

(disgustedly)

"There's always the empty adjoining bedroom," I suggest, not wanting to disturb the so soundly sleeping menagerie.

"Billy!! Move-- Nowwwww!!!"

Billy rolls his eyes at Frank, unmoved by firm tone of voice.

Alpha male wins-- Billy's in the next room,,, but I'm finding it most uncomfortable not being able to move!!!

(please disregard the fat, hairy, spider-veined leg with attached huge foot. Alpha male told me to cover it up before he snapped the pic,, but being the superalpha and omega female,,, I took offense,, saying, "What's wrong with my leg?? Now I see--- Dang-- he's always right!!)

Gone Camping, Again!

2008-07-28T21:01:00.002-03:00

That time of year, the time we look forward to all year-- recharge our batteries and make lasting memories with grandkids! Back Aug. 16! Our favourite place on the planet,

Kejimikujik National Park! http://www.friendsofkeji.ns.ca/photo_entries_2006.htm

Just Drifting Away!!

2008-07-27T10:55:00.004-03:00

Quite the role reversal and shocker for my offspring-- me -in the water!! Growing up, it was always Frank who "volunteered" to take the plunge with our kids,, whether it was a pool, beach or lake-- the rule was,, I don't do water!!! Something to do with fear of bathing suits, getting wet, and head under water!

Nowadays, he's adopted my rule---ironically-- I'm having all the fun!!

(sans bathing suit, or head under water)

Encounter with Evil

2008-07-23T19:58:00.002-03:00

As I bounded up our country lane to meet Frank at the main road this morning, I heard the sound of rocks splashing in the water-- large rocks-- then I saw him-- monster--taking careful aim before heaving the lethal weapon--
Mama could have taken flight-- she chose to protect her babes---
I hollered --- he stopped--
Tonight, I found her,,, this morning she had seven fledglings,, now she has three--
I am sickened by the cruelty and wish I could somehow apologize to this brave mama for the barbaric actions of our species--- and am amazed at her devotion in risking her life to save her young!

Coming Back to Bite You in the Butt

2008-07-17T20:05:00.003-03:00

Or other vital parts!!

Two (that I know )of these nasty critters--earwigs-- hitch hiked home in our laundry from last week's camping trip! Last Sunday, as I unpacked and dumped the oh so handy portable collapsing laundry bag,,, there they were-- the first one I gathered in kleenex, squashed in the palm of my hand(yes, I heard the crunch) and flushed down the toilet!

Earwig number two -- same procedure, except for crunching-- didn't have the heart or the stomach-- BUT I watched it disappear in a whirlpool (cesspool) of swirling water!! Phew-- sigh of relief--- UNTIL-

Today, whilst super cleaning same toilet,,, hidden crevices, under the rim,, full monty--- there it appeared, clutching vigorously on for dear life to underside of rim--close proximity to sitting (or standing) area--

CRUNCH!!!!

SIGNS OF ????

2008-07-14T18:45:00.003-03:00

Insanity?
I’ve been duly warned—but choose to proceed- in spite of the rolling eyes, scoffs, skepticism, and concern for my sanity!!
It was a wonderful weekend at Upper Clements Theme Park—along with five grandchildren , two children and their respective spouses--- At the end of the long fun-filled day, we were gathered at the “ball room”, readying to depart and say our good-byes--- Michael noticed an unusual looking rodent had poked its head out from under the wooden steps --- looking straight on—an animal the likes of which we had never seen, except in pictures, in broad daylight in the midst of a theme park nonetheless--- there it was--- and I knew--- call me crazy, whatever, a mother knows these things---- it was a GROUNDHOG!!! Chris’s birthday is Feb.2—Groundhog Day--- and I know, as anyone who knows Chris knows—his genius and flair for practical jokes,,, he had found a way to say “Hello, I’m here too”---

Who Needs Disneyworld??

2008-07-06T11:26:00.004-03:00

..when for a few measly dollars, you can have loads of fun and wetness without all the waiting in lines, mobs of people, heat, and expense??

Okay, okay,, so it's not water wonderland,, but Aussie had a ball!

Kayaking 101

2008-07-05T21:03:00.003-03:00

1.There's a reason we've never heard about people kayaking down the Meteghan River--- HELOOOOO! It's a shallow rocky brook,,, and might I add the rocks are slippery, slimy, when pulling you over them-- because you didn't wear solid watershoes--- I thought I was being smart by wearing them, when in fact you were the one who got to sit in the kayak,,, whilst I pulled and tugged, and hoped to God that watersnakes are of the fictitious species!!

After our initial misguided attempt,,,we did manage to find a peaceful, deep, slow moving waterway-- pure bliss!! Unfortunately I couldn't get any pictures --- 2.Must remember those waterproof zip-lock bags next time,,, and 3. Don't pack the sunscreen in the same bag as the camera and pop--- gooey mess!!!

GiddyUp Cowgirl!!

2008-07-04T16:04:00.005-03:00

Motherhood and guilt go hand in hand-- still feel guilty that we never found a way to fulfill Jennah's dream of owning a horse-- --even though we had dogs, cats, hamsters, guinea pigs, degus,rabbits, chinchilla, and hordes of plastic horses--- Often wonder how or if things would have been different for her---but then I look at Billy and Oedipus(her pets originally) and think,,, hmm,,, I could never have taken care of a horse!!

Couldn't resist buying this at the online yardsale for Lexy-- who loves it--but now she wants to have a REAL horse,,, and the guilt continues!!

Over My Dead Body!!

2008-06-19T15:01:00.003-03:00

Literally!!! Billy knows that packed camper equals separation! He absolutely refuses to budge-- can't even tempt him with doggie treats! Frank has to drag his "deadweight" body to the house--then we must endure his plaintive wails and sad eyes pleading as we head out for an enjoyable vacation-- marred only by the guilt of leaving him behind!! (No room in car and he's not used to being chained, so going with us is not an option) Just in case you were wondering--

Gone Camping!!

2008-06-12T12:02:00.003-03:00

Wohoo-- on our way to Jellystone Camp with three grandchildren in Baby Jay-- our newly-purchased, yet to be used, mini tent trailer!!

(Att:Would Be Burglers-- Billy the ferocious man-eating dog will be guarding all doors, windows, etc.)And if his bite won't stop you,, flatulence will!!

Be back Sunday! Heavily sleep-deprived, but very happy to be making memories!

Time Capsules and Changing Wardrobes

2008-06-10T12:44:00.005-03:00

Just planned to rearrange my closet, you know- move the heavy winter sweaters to a higher shelf, see if I could fit into any of last year's summer apparel--- vacume the dog hair- get organized-

It floated to the floor- I nearly sucked it up-- stopped in time-- went back to May 18, 2003 and another day of organizing and cleaning!

I searched voraciously in the aftermath-- for a clue, an explanation, a fragment, a trace-- I thought I had found , ingested, it all-- still starving-- He wasn't organized and his clothes were all over the floor--in a messy heap-- much as his last days-- As I reached the bottom, there it lay-- scribbled in pen on the back of a Sobeys grocery slip:

"In so many words, I offer my sincerest and heartfelt apology. If I Retain (?) this invisible weight, I will only become more afraid, and grow more despair(?) for myself each day. I plead and beg for a forgiveness whch my own heart tells me I do not deserve. Take this howerver you wish, but know that the writer is much too aware, to appease, or feign a false projection. The author has been exposed to the harsh elements of consequence, and (misdirection?) to find satisfaction in mere trickery. This dribble that has been written on th back of a Sobey's receipt stands as a time capsule. "

It is what it is----

Walking Tips!!

2008-06-07T18:31:00.005-03:00

Note to Self!!

Before embarking on walking trek around the lake you might want to keep in mind:

1. Don't drink your daily suggested serving of water just before leaving--- Elevator UP!!! doesn't work any more--- in fact it comes crashing down as I round the last corner and target toilet is within sight!!!

2. On Monday nights, you might want to choose the path less travelled,, through the woods, thereby avoiding Compost Bins and affiliated rank stench of rotting organics!!

3. And oh, as for air-drying your newly shampooed hair with that Suave coconut smell you love-black flies love it too!!!

Made in China

2008-06-01T19:10:00.002-03:00

I believe Elvis is dead and Princess Diana was the victim of a tragic set of unfortunate circumstances culminating in her death-- although the jury in my mind is still "out" on the deaths of JFK and Marilyn Monroe! So I wouldn't identify myself with typical conspiracy theorists----but lately,, I've been wondering ---Frank was almost done assembling the cheapie Zellers bought deck swing,, when he noticed a vital bolt was missing!! Zellers would not open a new box to supply the missing piece,, NO-- that would be too simple-- we (Frank) would have to dissassemble the swing and return the whole thing in its proper packaging--- &*%*^(--- He opted to buy a new bolt at the hardware store--
Yesterday while we were at Wal-Mart looking for a trampoline enclosure,, we spotted a combination trampoline-enclosure for less money than the safety net alone-- Just as we reached our decision to buy same,, along came a frazzled, frustrated mother, accompanied by a seriously worried looking clerk,, hoping we weren't waiting to buy that last trampoline combo, because upset mother needed it for the crucial post missing from her previously bought set-- kids were home disappointed,,, mother irate--- the trampoline needed that one last piece to be set up properly and they were not going to take it apart!! We understood-- she left with crucial missing piece from set-----So where am I going with this--- HMMM!! Maybe there is a Chinese conspiracy to drive us crazy!! One family at a time!! Beginning with toxic paint on our baby toys!! (I'm betting Wal-Mart sold the trampoline with the missing post to some unsuspecting consumer and this turns into the neverending story!)

Oedipus Revisited!!

2008-05-27T12:46:00.007-03:00

Why ???

This shameless female feline domesticus only seeks my attention when she knows I am otherwise occupied!!!

Get out of my way!! Please? Pretty Please? With sardines??%%%(^^8- I don't want to resort to violence!!!!!

The Shame of Silence of Shame!

2008-05-26T10:08:00.003-03:00

I've just been tagged by Musings--- She's such a good sport, and it really is thought-provoking so here goes!

1. Write the title to your own memoir using six words.
2. Post it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who tagged you.
4. Tag five more blogs.

Will say no more about the title, still wrestling with Silence!
I don't think five people read my blog, but here goes~

Couch Potato
Still At It
Shout
Through the Fire of Life
and YOU!

One of These "Things" is not like the others...one

2008-05-25T13:29:00.004-03:00

of these things just doesn't belong!!! Last Monday we met halfway at the zoo to spend some quality time together--- Mike , Rebecca, Alex and Madison from Halifax-- and Frank, myself, Austin, and Lexy from Yarmouth-- Just as Rebecca was getting all the kids in position,, a "chocolate ice-cream eating" boy ran over to get in on the act!

We thought it was hilarious-- joyful abandon of being a child, unguarded restraints and inhibitions--wouldn't it be funny if we adults dared to be more ------ childlike?

The Oedipus Complex

2008-05-20T14:33:00.004-03:00

Just an innocuous spray bottle of water on my bedside table – a symbol of the semi-symbiotic relationship between Oedipus and myself----Same ritual every night--- she claws madly at the edge of the mattress, (just out of arm’s reach) tearing at the fibres, announcing her arrival---
Too far away to swat, I wake up fit to be tied, reach for the trigger, already aimed at the mutilated section of mattress, and let loose an angry stream of lukewarm water—she tears out of the room , four feet scrambling to gain a toehold against the smooth laminate wood floor,,,,, then meekly turns around, pounces on the bed by my face and mews gently as if we had not just been engaged in mortal combat!! I play along with this charade by patting her lovingly, then assured of my wakefulness, she picks at the sheets until they are just right for sleeping—again, just slightly out of my reach! This happens at least four or five times each night.. Frank says we should just close the bedroom door------BUT----
I don’t want to hurt her feelings, she is super sensitive, and I am honoured to be her chosen significant human, thankful for whatever tidbits of affection she throws my way!!

Of Tulips and Trailers

2008-05-17T15:36:00.008-03:00

I promised him when we sold Winnie, this is IT-- we'll never get another one--the same words I had spoken the previous year aftr selling Shamrock-- I mean well-- just can't justify seeing all that money sitting in the driveway for fifty weeks of the year,,, so after the KEDJI-camping desire is sated,,, the need for cash kicks in....

But he should have known--as perennial as tulips in May, forcing their way through the hardened earth after a long, cold winter---so emerges the recurrent, innate urge within me to think about those two weeks of camping!!! aND THE IMPELLING ACTION WHICH ENSUES!

So it's only an 8 ft, box,, something our small Toyota can pull(when we get a towing package), so what if there's no stove or fridge-- we have that little propane camping stove and a five day cooler (as long as you don't open it)--- good price-- only three years old-- seemed to be calling our name!! Perfect for our needs--and I promise I won't want to sell it because there's not a lot of money invested in it!!

(trust me !!!)

Feeling satisfied after writing the check,, until the salesman said "Just goes to show, you can sell anything to anybody if the price is right!"

Phew!!!

2008-05-12T11:01:00.003-03:00

I made a conscious decision to focus on the positives-- the wondrous bounties my children and theirs have brought me-- Philip was already here, having spent the night so his "I love you, mom" started the day off perfectly-(actually afternoon,, I slept in) Mike called from Halifax-just knowing he and his family are within driving distance makes everyday special--- Jennah brought Lexy over, bearing much appreciated luxury bath items! Seeing the love between her and Lexy is so gratifying and fulfilling, words can't describe! Jeremy came by with flowers---I didn't want a repeat performance of last year's complete breakdown when he hugged me!! So I steeled myself for his embrace, and just savoured the feeling of love---- Jason had phoned earlier in the week from Alberta,, and Austin had spent the night before at our house--- I got through--but today my "muscles" ache from the effort of trying not to focus on the one who got away!! I love all you guys so much,, thank you for bringing so much joy and happiness to my life--- you are my life----

Addicted to What???

2008-05-08T11:55:00.003-03:00

Nicotine??? So far have fought that one successfully for two years--still feel like a smoker though------ Alcohol??? --no,, can live happily without booze--- Drugs?? NO, can't even swallow a pill without having it crushed!!

Would you believe I can't resist buying COOKBOOKS? and everytime I go to school,,, sure enough the salesman has left a new supply, tempting me, beckoning me to buy---- saying "This might just be the one that will turn you into a bonafide gourmet cook!" "I'm the book you can't live without!! BUY ME,, BUY ME!!"

I have shelves of cookbooks with thousands of virgin recipes-- so much uncharted territory,,, and still,,, I cook the same things over and over-- Kraft Dinner, Shepherd's Pie, Goulash---and now that the nest is empty,,, cooking has become a rare occurrence!! I even have four cookbooks on my bedside table--Yes, I READ them at night---- always thinking that just maybe, tomorrow will be the day!!

You should see my exercise video/cd collection--and all the fitness equipment! (in the barn)

Tsunami Aftermath

2008-05-06T14:28:00.006-03:00

I believe in the power of prayer-- I've experienced the power in cataclysmic, life-changing ways-- so I've been waiting--for something----there were prayers for Chris in our living room-in Ethiopia-- in India--so I've been waiting---

Today whilst walking in my new LARGE sneakers-- I felt a slight shift, a gentle tug,

An image of two kites, soaring high, their strings inexorably linked, sometimes flailing wildly toward the ground, even crashing now and then,,, but today I felt a release--- the string seemed longer and the kites more stable in their flight --

I let go the torment of not knowing -- It's okay-- the hows and whys don't seem to be dragging me down so much, and as for justice--- that belongs to God!

Our souls are so strongly linked,,when I feel myself headed into the abyss of grief-- the knowledge that I'm taking him with me stops the descent-

I still have a firm grasp on the handle, letting him fly alone is not an option, and yes there is a tail of remorse and guilt,,, but...we're flying higher and he's less entangled! Make sense??

What Price, Vanity??

2008-05-05T19:21:00.004-03:00

Yes, I know I've worn size nine footwear since the age of thirteen,, but every now and then 81/2 seems to work just fine so--- of course my first instinct in answering the question,"What size do you wear?" was eight and a half,, with my fingers crossed!!

They seemed to fit snugly...albeit my toes were a little crunched,,, so I meekly uttered,,, maybe I should try the nine,, just for comparing-- not that my feet are really THAT BIG!!!

As I stood upright , each foot in a different size, brows furrowed, the handsome young clerk said,"Wiggle your big toes."

He then noted that the toe wiggling in the eight and a half seemed the perfect fit,, and the wiggly niner appeared too large-- much to my delight!! "But it's your call," he added!

Drat it!! What to do?? My toes knew perfecty,, but my head told my mouth to say, "I'll take the smaller pair."

Two days later, feet aching, whilst on a trip to a shoestore in Halifax with Mike and Family,, I spied the SIZER! (as if I didn't already know) Slipping my right heel against the metal frame, trying to find which of the trifocals to look through,,, Rebecca , peering over my shoulder, says NINE!

I knew it!! Now it's official--- can I find the receipt?? Search through the wallet, purse, recyclables for the plastic shopping bag, jacket pocket, shoebox, misc. garbage, car---NO RECEIPT!! This was a job for Super Frank-- to my rescue again---He had no problem making the exchange!! Phew--- hope you can't see the price I was almost willing to pay!!

Out of the Mouth of "Babes"

2008-05-04T18:10:00.004-03:00

Of all the comments that day,, it was the one from the eight year old prima diva that sticks--- right through the heart--- she's the one all the other girls emulate and vie for her attention and approval-- the one who's absorbed all the lessons about self-esteem , being unique and female assertiveness,, a very self-confident and strong-willed female,, possessing all the virtues we try so hard to instill----

When I first walked into school on Friday, reactions were varied-- from "Did you do something different to your hair?" to "Oh!, you got your hair cut", followed by pregnant pause, to "I like your new hair style."

Then I walked down the long hall to the classroom , the same class I had been in all week, pretending not to notice the elbow nudges, whispering, and pointing, UNTIL-- Queen Bee--took one look at me , and unhesitatingly commented,

"Ewww!! I liked it better before. You look like an alien!"

It was the Simon Cowell comment effect---- the pure, brutally honest comment,, devoid of diplomacy or inhibitions-- the one that matters the most!!!

Not Quite Empty!!!

2008-05-01T19:42:00.002-03:00

For the first time in our conjoined lives,, Frank and I find ourselves alone---excepting of course Billy the farting dog, and Stoopy and Oedipus, our anti-social felines--
The problem is ---- Now that we have all this alone time and space to do whatever we want,,, well,,, we don't really -----er,, uh,, oh yeah, my offspring may read this--- We don't even like the same tv programs--- I'm sure when we were first dating, the space channel wasn't on 24/7!!! It used to be more important to be together in the same room than watching our favourite programs---So on a typical evening, such as this,,, I'm in the bedroom watching reality television of some sort, and Frank is at the computer playing Luxor whilst Star Trek or some such alien show is keeping him company in the living room-- Gotta go watch Survivor!!!

Amons in Canada!!!

2008-04-30T20:10:00.006-03:00

The best thing that's happened in the past six months

---a dream come true-

Mike and his family have come home---- although with no hint of global warming in these parts, they may well be second guessing that decision!!But aren't they beautiful.. Alex and Madison-- We love them dearly!!

And speaking of cold weather,, I should have known those begonias I planted at the grave would be WOEBEGONIAS!!! Thanks to the frost two nights ago!!! Hellooo?? It's supposed to be spring!!

Austin Loves His Little Lamb

2008-04-29T19:51:00.005-03:00

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=35802665036

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=35803910036

Stolen Pics, Cherished Moments

2008-04-28T20:36:00.004-03:00

I haven't taken pictures for a looong time-- something to do with bursting buttons, denial, avoiding mirrors, etc.

So I snuck over to Jennah's facebook page and stole this photo ----

Deja-vu, the past, present, and future, as if Jennah was looking into the mirror of her youth,, my baby Jennah,, my love Lexy!!

*&^% or get off the Pot!!

2008-04-27T12:33:00.003-03:00

Just going to tip toe lightly into the waters---- See how far I dare go-- really miss you guys--- especially H who's not on facebook--

So I knew yesterday was going to be a tsunami of epic proportions-- felt the tremors and warning signs weeks in advance-- didn't know how to prepare,where to run- how to find higher ground-- you see not only was it five years, the days coincided for the first time--which meant replaying every minute-

I thought maybe we should get away--- but where--- and in reality, I didn't watnt to escape--- I merely wanted to survive-

said prayers with special friends and reconnected with steadfast hearts--- planted flowers--- walked-- cried--- and

today? the aftermath?

Survival.

The Outside Toilet

2007-10-03T20:10:00.001-03:00

Now this takes excretory-centric to a whole new level , eh H??
Be Prepared is our motto!! Makes a very practical lawn ornamnet, don't cha think??
(Frank is going to kill me)
and notice the flatulence factory in lower right corner!!

Much Ado about the Lou !!

2007-09-30T20:32:00.000-03:00

The door opened softly, followed by the pitter patter of Lexy's bare feet.
"Hi Nannan" she squealed --
I greeted her in like manner and continued on with the business at hand, thinking, "I should have locked the bathroom door"--
Upon hearing the familar sound of flowing liquid, she jumped up and down in jubilation, clapping her hands wildly, "Awesome, awesome--" she repeated excitedly, as if I'd perfomed some amazing feat.
Jennah,, do you think we're getting a bit too excited about her peeing in the potty?

Chapter Two

2007-09-15T21:22:00.000-03:00

Friday was bittersweet--- the last official day of picking up Aussie from his babysitter's as we have done every day for the past two and a half years--- Can you believe he is starting school on Monday?? Pre-primary !!! They keep pushing up the dates when kids can enter the school system--- soon they'll just have the school bus stop at the delivery room!!
I knew it had to happen someday-- just wasnt prepared for the emotions -- but it's not about me--- he's so ready to experience all that life has to offer and face every new challenge--- it reminds me of the day I left Michael in Ottawa---- So sad,, but so necessary--- going through a new door--- and letting go!!
And this is a picture of his new friend Taylor,,, the Sunday morning after the Saturday night he met her down on the waterfront concert--- they danced for hours---- she wanted him to sleepover at her nanny's house,,, he begged, pleaded all the way to her house--- the only way we could appease the two of them was for Taylor's granny to promise she would bring her over to our house early Sunday morning!! Watch out Mandy,, he's a girl magnet!!!

Pics of Upper Clements

2007-09-13T13:28:00.001-03:00

Happiest Day of Summer!!!

2007-09-13T13:15:00.000-03:00

Lest you think all is not well,,,, not so!! Much good news to share-- in random order of importance----

Welcome to the world,,Ava Michelle Amon,, daughter of Jeremy and Denise, born Sept.7--- our eighth grandchild!! She's a beauty !!

Mike and Rebecca are moving to Halifax in January!! I hardly dared to write it --- didn't really dare to believe --somehow fearing the writing of it would cause it not to happen!!

And if those two events weren't enough to be ecstatic about--- Jennah will be moving in to her very own "mini-home" (wink, wink) in mid October----

And then there was the happiest day of summer---

our August trip to Upper Clements Park with Aussie, Lexy, Jennah , Mandy & Tim.

It doesn't get better!!! (Except if H would plan a trip to North America--- --)

Summer Downhill

2007-08-06T18:05:00.000-03:00

Something about that first week in August--and having lived on a school cycle for the past fify-one years-- like being at the highest point on a ferris wheel--- the last few weeks are like the last coming down-- you can see the end in sight and know the ride is almost over-- even though I'm retired,,, I STILL feel that same sense of approaching dread--SCHOOL_ store shelves are filled with school supplies, and all summer merchandise has been retired to the back room---

Keji was wonderful as usual,, except when we had to be rescued by park rangers--- the bike trail was LONGER than we could endure, and with the scent of bear in the air,, we gratefully accepted the 20 min ride by truck back to our camplot---

Austin thinks our house is more fun than Keji, so he was happy to come home---

The greatest benefit of going away is a renewed appreciation for HOME and FAMILY!! and televison,, and our comfy queen size bed,, and steps away from "facilities"" (but I promise not to go there again-)

So tomorrow morning I go to the dentist for the first time in ten years---- slightly phobic,,okay--extremely phobic,,, I'm already in a panic---

What's with Amber on Big Brother--- Her theme song should be "Crying"-- yeah,, I missed Big Brother too-- how sick is that?? Don't tell me!! And my final infantile thought-- I think Facebook is taking over !!!!

Last Post ...for awhile!!

2007-07-17T21:42:00.000-03:00

Yup---we're Keji bound for two glorious weeks! First ten days, alone,,, then four days with Aussie!!! Making memories time!!

Note to self:: Don't forget to bring the canned prunes and /or dried apricots!! OMG, I have a deep respect and admiration for those people who can sit on a public toilet seat,, inches away from another such positioned person, divided by a supposed partition,,, open at top and bottom ----AND JUST LET IT ALL OUT--EXPLOSIVE AND SOUND BARRIER BREAKING!! How do they do that, then just walk out as if no ones' olfactory and auditory nerves have been bombarded, smile, sometimes wash their hands, and carry on!! I give anal retentive a whole new meaning--- okay,,, I've embarrassed my offspring--but when I turn off the computer tonight,, that'll be it for two weeks--- in more ways than one!!!

The more things change ....

2007-07-08T13:42:00.000-03:00

The more they stay the same !!! If'n I could even get in that position today,, I daresay some elements of the picture would be the same!!!!

That bladder repair job I had a few decades ago didn't quite do the job--okay,, okay,, too much information,,, I know!!

P.S. And I thought they were impressed with my gymnastic abilities!!

"New" Van

2007-07-04T15:28:00.001-03:00

We pondered, debated, hummed and hawed---- it seemed too good to be true-- price was right-- immaculate exterior and interior-no minutae of rust--- BUT-- lots of miles!!! What to do?? Give me a sign-- I need a sign-- I implored, as we sat in the parking lot of the used car dealer for the nth time---- what to do!!! If only we knew who the previous owner was!!! hmmm-- when into the lot pulled a new gold van--- the owner , a 77 year old man just checking up on his "baby"-- the Dodge Caravan he had purchased new in 1998 and took care of with kid gloves--even had every detail of service for the past nine years!!! So Happy Birthday Jennah!!

Happy Birthday Jennah!!!

2007-07-04T15:24:00.000-03:00

You just get more beautiful with each passing year!!

Love you so much, my sweet baby girl!

Til the Fat Lady Sings !!

2007-06-26T19:47:00.000-03:00

And it ain't over!!

Just when I think I've partaken of all the manna from heaven ---

there on Facebook.com, Louisette starts an

"in memory of chris amon" group,

and Beth comes through with a picture of Chris taken years ago at Bartlett's Beach.

I love the feeling of joy and happiness he exudes--

My heart is going to burst!!

A Peek Inside

2007-06-25T20:30:00.000-03:00

The Fabric of My Life !!

2007-06-25T20:21:00.000-03:00

Is Freaking Orange Shag !!!!!!!

My first apartment in Wolfville--1971--- orange shag rug to go with Wurlitzer 45 record player----It worked in the 70's----

House on James Street---wall to wall orange carpeting--- Big house,,, lots of orange to go with the big bold green and orange flowered wallpaper

didn't like it then-- outdated---

ripped it up one day to reveal not so great hardwood floors, worn down to their final mm----

so I knew Winnie was meant for me---- the moment the door opened!!!

I hate orange--but it seems to be a recurring theme in my life--

To my offspring,, forget the fancy coffin--wrap me up in orange shag!!!

Sorry, Sorry, Sorry !!! It's Winnie's Fault !!

2007-06-24T19:13:00.001-03:00

No excuses!!! Haven't forgotten you-- in fact my last thought most nights is--oh damn, I'm going to blog for sure tomorrow---guilt,,guilt,, shame! But here's a picture of the fruit of my labours!!! Meet Winnie--(and billy's assend) --the result of an all consuming mania to satisfy that old familar camping urge---- I scoured the internet, did the research, spent weekends hunting our prey, as far as Kentville,,, and we found her-- in Clementsport--- winnie--- She's not quite as old as the Shamrock,, (1983) but is shorter, narrower, and purrs like a kitten-- no discernable signs of rust!!! So now that the urge is sated,, I should be able to settle down to some serious blogging-- starting with catching up on your blog!!!

Mind Over Matter

2007-05-13T15:50:00.000-03:00

The best part about being a mother is...
being a grandmother!!!
So many new gadgets for kids-- We went looking for a "little red wagon" and found this green two seater, with seatbelts and door!!

So I told myself, it's just a day-- just another 24 hours to live through--- just breathe, play with Austin,, and don't think--- don't think about it being Mother's Day---- it's not working!!!

The Wedding "Couple"

2007-05-10T14:00:00.000-03:00

Mandy and Tim got hitched last Saturday-

lovely ceremony at St. Ambrose Cathedral followed by reception and dance at the Lions Club---- wonderful day--- but (sorry Mandy)

the couple who stole the show---was----

Austin and Shay-Lynn!!!

OMG, they were so cute-(of course I"m a tad biased)

Walked side by side, regally, down the looong aisle of the church, amidst all the oohs and ahhs, smiles and clicks of cameras----

They were priceless,,, and when they were to lead the bridal procession into the reception hall,,,

he took one look around,, saw me and Papa,,

and veered ninety degrees off course into our welcoming arms,,,

along with the flower girl whowouldn't leave his side!!!

Mandy and Tim are honeymooning in Niagara Falls so I'll let her post

pictures of the other couple!!

"Where oh where can my little car be?"

2007-04-29T15:55:00.000-03:00

So I walk out of Wal-Mart this rainy afternoon, having taken advantage of the newly allowed Sunday shopping-- those darn informercials woke me up last night and hooked me into listening to Kevin Trudeau promote his newest novel-- something about new natural cures, secrets finally revealed--- especially the part about acid reflux (Frank) and high cholesterol (me)---caught my ear.

Sure enough,, just as he said, the book was available at Wal-Mart--- but the cover price was thirty dollars, and the informercial said if you call that 800 number right away, the book would be sent free,,, so I couldn't justify spending all that moolah-- but I did sneak a few free peeks..picked it up an put it back about ten times, before I decided that maybe I'll get lucky and be woken up by that infomercial again---- if I can REMEMBER what channel the TV was on!!!!

As I walked out the front door of said superstore,, I knew instantly I was in trouble-- had no idea from which direction I had parked--- so I sauntered,, at first casually so as not to draw attention from the "waiting in car people"... around the lot, as if I was out for a Sunday stroll,,, then desperation and panic set in as I realized that little red Echo was NOT in the whole parking lot !!

SOMEONE HAD STOLEN MY CAR--

AS I HEADED BACK TOWARDS THE STORE, INTENDING TO PHONE MY PERSONAL 911-- FRANK----

IT OCCURRED TO ME!!

I was driving Jennah's blue yaris!!

As for Kevin Trudeau,,, I wonder if he has a cure for memory loss!!

Prayer for Chris

2007-04-26T09:26:00.000-03:00

O My God! O Thou forgiver of sins! Bestower of gifts! Dispeller of afflictions!
Verily, I beseech Thee to forgive the sins of such as have abandoned the physical garment and have ascended to the spiritual world.
O my Lord! Purify them from trespasses, dispel their sorrows, and change their darkness into light. Cause them to enter the garden of happiness, cleanse them with the most pure water, and grant them to behold Thy splendors on the loftiest mount. Abdu'l-Baha

Reality Check !!

2007-04-25T19:30:00.000-03:00

Oh my GAWD!!!

In high-pitched valley girl drawl---

OH MY GAWD,

as I lay writhing on the bed this morning, sucking my gut through to my back,,

trying to get the teeth in that zipper to mesh,, close,, join,, unite.

These are the fattest of my fattest pants !!!!

Now I won't even be able to wash them----

this has got to be the limit--

the apex, the zenith,,

This is the line in the sand-- it's all out war---

I refuse to buy the next larger size----no, no,, Let me weigh the options-

-- smoke, live a shorter life ,thin.

live a longer life Fat!!!

This Day in History

2007-04-20T11:29:00.000-03:00

April 20--- Ridvan begins at sunset

April 20, 1999--Columbine High Massacre

April 20, 2005--- Mom died

No flowery peace and love syrupy obit---

it wasn't gentle,, it wasn't peaceful.. it wasn' t loving.

No easy pass

It was brutal, barbaric, endless rattling,

dry-parched throat curdling,

eyes screaming silently, beseeching,

pleading,

"Why can't I have a sip of water?"

Last words---

Wouldn't let an animal suffer so!

Medical technology ????

I prayed , begged, and tried to deal with God-

Let this be her last breath!

He listened.

Love you Mama, may God refresh and gladden your spirit, and may your spirit be quenched with lifewater.

Just Because .....

2007-04-19T19:24:00.000-03:00

Just cuz it's time--- time to post a picture of Lexy with the pigtails,, Lexy with the shiny mouth-- some kind of rash--- but can't let that stop us from capturing time----

She's learning so much,, new words and funny actions every day---especially how to use her feminine wiles to get her way with Papa,, and everyone else--- a real livewire!!

We Say Good-bye, You Say Hello .....

2007-04-15T16:10:00.000-03:00

Hey Chris,

Billy and I walked to the cemetery today to pay homage to you and Kurt ! I'm sure you were there to welcome him across and show him all the ropes-- he was such a great influence --- after you died, I read voraciously, all things kurt-- Cat's Cradle, Slaughterhouse five, Galapogos, and more whose names I can't quite recall--- thinking the more words of his I read, the closer I could connect to you-as if reading the same words you had read at one time would keep you here with me--- with only Billy to accompany me, my thoughts went places I try to avoid, but it is that time of year--- and this morning I watched a tv tribute to the man---

it took me back to those days,, four years ago, as vivid in my mind as if it were only yesterday!

As I walked, I wondered who is part of your karass now,,, or the many karasses you are undoubetdly a part of---

I imagine you with Pa, watching his favourite wrestler and cheering Philip along with boxing,

Dropping by to visit Mom and meeting her family.

You and Max learning all kinds of new and exciting things, yet never too far from your families left behind-

Jamming with Jimi Hendrix and Jim Morrisson--- Watch out for your cousin Paul in Afghanistan..

I know you still keep an eye on us,

Dad told me about the light show last week when he was at Phil's apartment-- keep watching out for him-

and Austin too!!

So today, I say a special prayer for you and Kurt!!

Love, your mama ...

"For all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these, It might have been." Kurt Vonnegut

What's Wrong with this Picture ???

2007-04-10T20:37:00.000-03:00

The rubber bin on top of the wood stove ??

The water bottles on the hearth??

NO NO NO

The Easter Bunny left a T-Ball set for Aussie to play with-----

an outdoor activity

Outdoors?????

Not gonna happen

Still too cold and there's talk of another nor'easter on the way for Thursday-

Nor'Easter Bunny ??

Oh yeah,,,

the bin and bottles are off the rug because the night before I steam cleaned the carpet----

you don't want to know why, but here's a hint---

Billy----

another hint--- compost bin----- regurgitation---

sorry,,,

too much information and Frank will be upset with me,,,

and I so wanted just to keep it cutesy, to go along with the pics,,,

but somehow I always have to bring it down--- or should that be bring it up ????

ain't he sweet???

And the carpet is clean now,, even though it's probably the repository of thirty years of crud--- even the "rug doctor" cleaner can't cure what ails it---

I want hardwood floors----- did you hear me darling,, dearest,,

hardwood floors !!!!

And I promise, if we get new flooring,,, I'll clean up all future regurgitations !!! Deal or NO Deal???

Bunny Tales !!

2007-04-07T18:51:00.000-03:00

Been substituting alot--- Last Thursday,, before the Easter holdiday weekend,, I was in a Grade Two classroom-- we had an Easter party of sorts in the pm--- couldn't help but wonder what the sweetest little girl from Iraq must have thought of a bunny delivering chocolate eggs --- rabbits?? eggs?? When you've grown up with the tradition, I suppose it just seems normal-- then i remember trying to explain to our Baha'i friends, newly arrived as refugees from Iran about twenty years ago---how silly it seemed !!! What do eggs have to do with rabbits??

There is a walking trail through the woods near our home that borders Riverside Cemetery--- Frank and I had walked it regularly with Billy--- then after Chris died, the walk took on special significance-- especially the days after the headstone had been ordered--- We didn't know exactly when it would be there,,, so we approached with trepidation, wanting to see it,, and dreading to see it--- On the day we first saw the stone,, well,, it's a sight no parent is ever ready to accept--- so after the tears, we headed home-- the trail is rectangular ,, and as we turned up the last ninety degree corner, Frank whispered Shhhh!!! Look!! Even Billy stood still-- There , just ahead , at the highest point of the trail was an adult brown hare- standing erect on his hind legs and looking to the right, as if a statue----- As we watched in awe, the rabbit turned and stood the other way, looking to its left. It all happened in a matter of seconds,, and the rabbit scurried away--- not a usual occurrence!! Suddenly it made sense !!

http://www.amonworld.com//

Our tears turned to laughter--just the sort of thing Chris would arrange and somehow it felt as if he was walking along with us , pulling his usual pranks!!!!

PS: Mandy has some clearer pictures of our skating excursion!!

PPS: They're giving a winter storm warning--- isn't this spring???

Spring, Spring, Wherefore art thou ??

2007-03-25T18:48:00.000-03:00

This morning's view from our front door--- everything shrouded in white, pure, crisp, beautiful----and I do mean morning--- not just anything can get me out of bed early on a cold Sunday morning when I should be snuggled under the comforter watching Coronation Street-- BUT--

my Aussie was going to the rink this morning--- his first time on skates--- an event too important to miss!!! I even bought a pair of skates--haven't been skating in decades--- and as it turns out,, I still haven't been skating in decades--- seems it takes more than the passage of time to turn into a smooth, graceful skater--

and poor Austin---

let's just say, maybe the next time will be better!!! It looks so easy,,, next year we'll try again sooner in the season,, meanwhile, my new skates are going back to the store tomorrow!!!

Schizoid Signs of Spring

2007-03-24T18:31:00.001-03:00

Chocolate Ice cream on Austin's face !

Playing outside!!- in true Canadian style-

This year, it happened on the fourth day of March Break-- the continuous rewind of events--- events beginning God knows when, culminating on April 26-

It's replayed so many times in my mind,, but through the period beginning with March Break,, I relive those days--- the 200 mile ride to Lunenburg in mom's car---- feeling a sense of hope heading to the one available bed in the whole province -- for seven days--- trying to remember the conversation, what little of it there was, and remembering the last half-hearted hug---"I love you Chris"---- then the drive home alone, praying to God, to Pa, to anyone who would listen,,, please --- help---- then the phone call 5 days later---- he'd broken a rule and was being sent home early--- I didn't go get him-- I was too mad---

On the fourth day of March Break, the tape began to play again---- the count down begins --- and part of me was horrified that I could have gone four whole days into the break without remembering--- as much as it hurts to remember,,,,, forgetting is worse!!

Mike's New House!!!

2007-03-05T19:53:00.000-04:00

I'm calling on all the powers of the universe-----last year I didn't enter the draw,,, but it's official--- I just phoned in my order for the winning ticket-- check it out at http://www.qe2lifestyleslottery.com/main.php

Notice the house comes fully furnished , landscaped , with a 2007 BMW in the driveway!!!

Worth over a million buckeroos--- now I know that our old Shamrock couldn't entice Mike and Bec , so we've upped the ante!!

And if we don't win,, the money goes to our top notch regional hospital---- to dispel the gambling guilt!!!

If you go on the site, you can even take a virtual tour of the house--well maybe you can,, I couldn't get the darn thing to work on my computer--- have been busy working last week and am booked for all this week too--- thus the lack of blogging---

Last week, after a morning of teaching math, the cutest, quietest little girl approached me---- hesitantly-- face beet red---- stuttering---"Mrs. Amon,, I don't know how to tell you this"--- painfully stricken voice!!! All sorts of things reeled through my head as I said in my "nice understanding teacher" voice--

"That's okay, what's the problem?"

Whispering,,, hands cupped to my ear---

"There's a kind of a hole in the back of your pants!"

As I reached back,,, sure enough,,,,, the whole rear seam was burst open!!!

And I remember thinking that morning as I zippered up my pants,, how they felt a little looser than when I had bought them!!!!!

PS_ I just took a virtual tour of the interior--- after you click on virtual tour,, click on "map" to view any room in the house-----

What's all the babble about??

2007-02-25T12:09:00.000-04:00

Okay,, I've really tried hard to "get into" a movie frame of mind,, with all the Oscar buzz and hype---- Never been a fan of the big screen- but thought maybe in my "golden years" I could try --- so we paid our first visit to Yarmouth's new Empire Studio-- impressive--- to watch Pursuit of Happyness---- nice story, but .... too shallow, superficial----

then we tried "Hannibal Rising" to pass a quiet Sunday evening--- YEGADS-- AN ASSAULT ON ALL OUR SENSES!! BLOOD-GORE- LOUD-KILLING-BLOOD--

DID I MENTION BLOOD???

So we rented the much touted Babel---------

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??

BEST PICTURE OF THE YEAR??? I hated it---although the concept had merit---- the ramifications and effects of a single gun shot felt throughout the world---- but again,,, I need to be touched on an emotional level to appreciate a movie-- whether it be through tears, laughter, awareness, rage, anger, understanding--I need to feel SOMETHING!!

I still think about Sophie's Choice and Schindler's List, and I watched Monster Ball twice!!!

But BABEL???

I couldn't get inside the head of any of the actors-- and what was with that Japanese girl showing her "unshaven" not so private parts??

(Unlike Brittany Spears, who delighted the world with her "clearcut" south to match her newly shaven north-- but that's a whole other post--- the times they are a changin/shavin ???? )

If Babel wins an Oscar tonight,,,, I'm through with Hollywood!!!!!

PS; if you check Bec's photalbum (on Mike's blog) for Feb, there's a picture of a garden which should be named the Hannibal Lecter Memorial garden!!!!

Snow Much Fun !!!!

2007-02-23T12:53:00.000-04:00

See what you're missing Mike??? Snowforts, sliding, and COLD !!!! I thought I was the only one suffering from winter blahs brought on by frequent eating binges and cold weather--- till I checked out the other blogs and find we're all kind of stuck in that lethargic rut--- me?? I've been sandwiched between Bejewelled and the Anna Nicole circus--- Court tv is free for the month of February and that addictive gene in me has found a new target--- When the month is over, I'll be forced to phone Eastlink and get that channel on my monthly bill-- great marketing folks--- and as for the Anna Nicole fiasco,,, it's like watching a train wreck-- makes me sick but I can't turn away---- I just wanted to leap through the screen and shout at everyone----YOU FOOLS!! WHATS THE DEBATE?? WHEN SHE BOUGHT FOUR PLOTS IN THE BAHAMAS AND BURIED HER SON THERE,,, THAT WAS HER INTENT!! TO BE BURIED BY HER SON--- ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED BEFORE THE DEATH OF HER SON IS MOOT----but I don't think they'd listen to me anyway---okay,, time for another carb intake-----

Thank -you B !

2007-02-15T19:49:00.000-04:00

Two nights ago, my hairdresser/therapist called to tell me to watch today's Oprah show!!!

She knew I wouldn't want to miss it-- how right she was--- it featured John Edward and the real Allison Dubois-

I wasn't disappointed-- they confirm what I already know and believe---- and tonight I'll be ordering this book---

We are their heaven????

Now that's an intriguing concept---

Feb. 14, 1982

2007-02-14T14:27:00.000-04:00

The best Valentine I've ever received!!

Came home from a hard day's work and there on the front lawn, was this work of (h)eart---
Frank was working the night shift way back then, and taking care of Chris, who hadn't started school yet--they built this together with a little red food colouring--- It made me cry then, it makes me cry now----

Happy Valentine's Day Frank---I love you as much today as I did then---
(even if you can't spell !!!!!!) ;)

Best Before .........

2007-02-05T20:04:00.000-04:00

Watching the news after those tornadoes in Florida wreaked their havoc--- and kept hearing about the search for "expired persons" . What 's up with that???

I guess we do have an expiry date--- wonder where to find it--- would you want to??

As for my best before date??? Long Gone!!!!!!!!!

Everytime I sign in to blogger,,,

I check "remember me on this computer"--- it never does!!!

The good news is I acquired a whole new wardrobe of jeans---

the bad news???

their Jennah's "fat" clothes!!!! Wah wah wah sob sob

He Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda.........

2007-02-02T18:22:00.000-04:00

Been 29 years old today!!

Your absence has gone through me

Like thread through a needle.

Everything I do is stitched with its color.
- W. S. Merwin, 1973

Stolen from Mikki's website

Memories from Michael-

You've Got Seamail !!!

2007-02-01T20:21:00.000-04:00

Superman and Timtams!!

The parcel left Australia on Nov. 13, 2006 and arrived here on Jan 25, 2007 after crossing the Pacific.

Well worth the wait---- beautiful picture album-- family photos of 2006-- thank-you Bec!!

It's difficult being so far away- we cherish every photo and appreciate your efforts to keep us connected !!

And the Superman pjs for Austin were perfect and timely-- he's outgrown Spiderman -- and he's a Bob the Builder fan!! But for all you people out there who've never tasted a Timtam----- You don't know what a taste treat you're missing--- In fact, we (mostly I) went through all the packages in two days---- When we were in Australia,, they couldn't keep a package in the house--- --- Tim Hortons in Canada and Timtams in Australia!! Both highly addictive, irresistable,, and millionaire makers----- So thanks guys!!! Philip isn't quite sure about that electric shock game--- hidden message maybe??? :)

Happy Birthday Mike !!

2007-01-30T15:28:00.000-04:00

Can't possibly let this date pass without a shout out to Michael in Australia-- where his birthday has probably already passed!!
Happy big three zero firstborn!!!!
Consider yourself hugged --- big, huge, hug!!
You have brought so much joy and pride to my life-
I love you Mike!!!

Of Psychics

2007-01-23T20:47:00.000-04:00

I finally did it--- kept my appointment with a local much recommended psychic---- was thrilled that the session was being taped,,, very emotional-- wanted to share with Frank----- NOTHING RECORDED!!! What a disappointment----
But the reading was phenomenal, comforting, and very personal---- lots of tears--- She said she could see Chris next to me, very strong and powerful---- that he was at peace and needed me to make peace with what had happened-- that it wasn't so much the events of one tragic night, but the culmination of bad choices, on his part--- it was about the "amount" of something he had ingested----- stupidity--- and he was so so sorry for the pain he has caused--- he loves his family and goes to great lengths to make his presence felt--- we need to know he finally "gets it!"---
She knew music was his passion,,, how alone he felt here---- how he touched so many lives--- she knew some specific details of the people who were with him, which I believe to be true-- their race--- so much more I can't relate on this blog--- She told me things about Philip, Frank, and my future--- including a trip across water in the next two years,,, and a long road trip in seven months!!!
India , or Australia,,, here we come!!! She mentioned spiritual orbs -- very common --This may seem very general ,, but she definately hit on some very specific things that only have meaning to me----
She also said he blames nobody , absolutely nobody but himself--- and he is so sorry!!! This is but a tiny snippet of an hour long meeting----well worth it!!!

Men & Jen in Black !!

2007-01-20T13:50:00.000-04:00

Philip, Jason, Jeremy, and Jennah, on the occasion of Jeremy and Denise's wedding-- was it two years ago???
Just occurred to me that my son number one, Mike, will be thirty this month, and my baby, Philip, just turned twenty---- What a decade that was!!! By son number one, I mean Michael was my firstborn--- When Frank and I married, we each gained two wonderful sons-- Philip doesn't like me to talk about him, so I respect his privacy--- but he was a little put out that I didn't mention his birthday was in December, when I was speaking about it being an auspicious month! Sorry about that Philip---
This was such a happy day-- not only was the wedding fabulous, but Philip was so happy to spend time with his big brothers----- With all our busy lives, and fractured families, those times are rare---so all the more precious---

"You Are a Child of the Universe"

2007-01-14T20:08:00.000-04:00

Desiderata--- I love that poem-- it has accompanied me since the days of Acadia University---- when I bought the poster and hung it on my dorm wall-- for comfort, guidance, inspiration---
Thought about it tonight, especially the lines

"Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. "

It's so hard to know when to let events unfold---- or when to nudge them along!!
Still can't figure that one out-

Inspired !!!!

2007-01-13T21:05:00.000-04:00

To the left, the very cluttered view from my bed-- into the hall at the head of the stairs,,Where many a night I have fastened my gaze in the hope that I would catch a vision of Chris coming home, hear the door close, Billy's tail wagging, and his footsteps headed towards the bathroom, just off to the right--- thinking that if I tried hard enough, he would appear , as they do on soap operas or movies---
I need to hold on to the memory of his coming home --
tonight he stands majestically at the head of the stairs---- The painting from Beth feels somewhat like a homecoming----- Her parents delivered it to us from Ottawa--- but it didn't really originate there-- it was truly inspired---- through Beth-She named it 25, 26----
I thought it was because Chris was 25
when he died on April 26----
No, She was 25 when she finished it on April 26!!!
How could she have known the significance of the archer--- it was the poem by Kahlil Gibran that inspired my wedding message to Michael---- and the colours---- my colours-- so thank-you Beth,, and thank you Chris---- When I looked up the meaning of "inspired", - to fill with an animating, quickening, or exalting influence--- there was an unexpected description---"to breathe life into or upon" Welcome home!!

Eastlink--- What's Up???

2007-01-07T13:31:00.000-04:00

Haven't been able to access my email server, although obviously I have internet service--- when I try to check my mail, it "times out"---- Time Out???
Isn't that the newest fad in childhood disciplinary measures---
I'm going to count to three-- one, two,,,, two and a half,, two and three quarters,, two and five -sixths----- Yep, I've seen and heard this--- three never comes--- I digress---
I want to check my mail--
Haven't I been chastised enough?? For what??? I dunno, but I promise I won't do it again--- this time out is pissing me off!!! Tomorrow I'm going to call Eastlink and give them a piece of my mind--- what little left there is,,, don't think I can spare a piece--- but I am going to phone and enquire courteously----- BEFORE I RESORT TO VULGARITIES &*^*&^&^^)&) !!! Watch out Eastlink!!!

On a happier note, the picture is Dawson, Jason's son---who spent a good part of Saturday with us - and Arielle and Austin---- We took them bowling, then watched a few movies and ate pizza,,, well, not pizza, garlic fingers,,, we noticed at our last event,, the kids remove all the "healthy' toppings, anything vegetable,, whilst the side order of garlic fingers disappeared within seconds--- so cut to the chase, ,, just order the GF.--
Speaking of vulgarities,,, I was going to blog about the Australian winter we're having-!!! In this topsy-turvy world, the south is having snowstorms and we're in double digit warmth!!! Whodda thunk?? I supppose I should be concerned about the environmental effects---
BUT I LOVE IT!!!
I heard on the news that cherry blossoms were starting to bloom in places they just shouldn't be appearing in the middle of winter,,, so I googled "cherry blossoms"---
BIG MISTAKE----- DON'T TRY IT--
UNLESS YOU ARE A HOT BLOODED HORNY HOMOSAPIEN!!

Bling! Bling !!!

2007-01-01T21:07:00.000-04:00

Nope, Didn' t get any for Christmas,,,,
Raising kids for the past thirty years, and never succumbed to the lure of Atari, Nintendo, Play Station, x-Box, or whatever the latest technology---
But Now- in our GOLDEN years,,, we (Frank & I) are in full- blown addiction---
to the blasted video game Bejeweled!!
It has taken over our ever increasing waking moments-
We fight over whose turn it is----
the dishes mount--
the laundry increases---
the dust mites propagate--
and still we sit bedazzled by the thrill of just one more game!!!

YESTERDAY !!

2006-12-25T17:55:00.000-04:00

"A Tale of Two ...."

2006-12-23T12:31:00.000-04:00

Emotions-- "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times"---
Thursday night was the best-- we had all of the grandchildren, minus Alex and Madison, up for supper and gifts--- Christmas is such madness, they get so many presents- to avoid the frenzy and get in some quality time makes sense--- they'll remember the togetherness long after who gave what gift---
Maxing out the credit cards, relying on overdraft protection---- not so great--- but this too shall pass!
My strength was always mathematics--- predictable, analytical, logical-----A positive cancels a negative and inequalities can be turned into equalities--- Not so this time of year--- Positive two (Austin & Lexy) doesn't clear Negative two (Mom & Chris) In fact, joy somehow multiplies sorrow- their absence is deeply felt--- Christmas was alway Mom's time of year-- She loved watching us open the too many gifts she'd buy--- she'd tease and torture us with anticiapation- and she looked forward to sharing dinner---- And Chris,, I miss him everyday--- and in the most tender moments with Austin, there is sadness- It's funny how joy and sorrow can dwell together in the same heart at the same time, but I am thankful for the joy----- maybe it's more like a teeter-totter--- and there is a balance--- Gotta get busy preparing for the Christmas dinner which we have on the 24-- Merry Christmas to all---

Auspicious Month!!

2006-12-17T13:51:00.000-04:00

Seems our family likes to get all special occasions over with in one month!!! Well, not all- but

Happy first birthday Lexy! on Dec. 15

Happy fourth birthday Alex and

Happy Anniversary Denise and Jeremy on Dec. 17!

Blogger BeDamned!

2006-12-15T11:09:00.000-04:00

Since enticement has not worked, they're now getting nasty-- coercion-- holding us holdouts hostage-- HOW? Not letting us leave comments on Beta Blogs!!! I have already wasted hours trying to leave comments for H, HB, and Lizza---the ultimate torture---- I can feel myself so close to clicking on Beta---it's cruel and unusual punishment to be made mute, muffled, silenced---- this plan may just work!!

Think out of the box !!

2006-12-12T09:34:00.000-04:00

Money saving hint, especially at this time of year--- They prefer the box over the gift!! Children , that is-- whereas we women prefer the contents of the very small jewelry box!!!

Note to Frank: Hint Above!
(amethyst, his birthstone)

May I please write about the crappiest Christmas present I ever received?? Please?? Pretty pleeeeease?? I think it may have even been grounds for divorce, but I'm still here!! Unless you were really trying to think of a not so subtle way to get rid of me--- gotta laugh at yourself sometimes Franklyn-- please let me tell the story!!!!!! about the t----- s--- you thought I'd be so thrilled to s-it on!!!

Mom and Marsha

2006-12-09T18:01:00.000-04:00

The face I see in the orb is Mom as she looked here-- only her face is turned the other wa, towards Austin, and her mouth is open-- the face is around ten or eleven o'clock and is completely contained wihthin the orb, not to be confused with the actual person in the background as seen in the larger picture from which the orb was cropped.
I outlined the face as I see it with black .

Can't Help Myself !!

2006-12-08T11:48:00.000-04:00

For those of you who are uncomfortable with my (obsession) interest in spiritual orb phenomena, stop reading now!!!!!
They first came to my attention 4 months after Chris died, as I was reviewing the pictures that Jason gave us on disc, taken in the aftermath, when Mike was home to attend the funeral. Seven of the over hundred pics had unusual glowing orbs of light, varying in intensity and size--- I cropped, pasted, magnified the most obvious ones,--- and I saw the face of Chris and Frank's dad in two of them--
I knew there were far more people at Austin's birthday party than the naked eye could see-- I magnified the brightest orb, and in the left upper portion, I clearly see my mother's face, as she looked in her younger , most beautiful days--- brown hair-- to verify my sanity,, both Frank, (who never "sees") recognized her instantly------ so did Jennah--
The funny thing is, had she been alive , she wouldn't have been at his party--- she never really "took" to the whole grandmother experience--- sad---- but it makes me feel good to know that just maybe we really do continue to progress and learn about the important things we missed in this life!!

How Many Children do you Have?

2006-12-07T13:32:00.000-04:00

It was an innocent enough question, asked casually to me by the guy working out on the leg lift machine next to me---- about six months after Chris died and I had garnered the strength to face the world, that was somehow still revolving and carrying on with one less red head---
It took me so by surprise---
I burst into tears, covered my face, and couldn't figure out how to answer that simple question-- the question that had always been rather complicated anyway---
I had worked it out to say-"Three sets of two"-- Math being my favourite subject-- 3 x 2 =6
I had two boys, my husband had two boys, then we had a girl and a boy--- so it was a complicated six----
But now I had to rethink so many things---
How many children do I have?--
While I"m a blubbering idiot, the poor guy beside me, Gerald, the nicest man in the universe, is berating himself, apologizing and just wishing he could somehow erase the question---
poor guy-- he smiles and walks on by whenever he sees me in public--
Don't blame him--- I've reworked it all out though, so I'm prepared --
"Three sets of two--- scattered all over the place!"

In fact , if you take a trip to Mike's blog, you'll see pictures of now "four" Amons populating the continent of Australia!!

What a Difference a Day Makes!!

2006-12-04T14:03:00.000-04:00

Looking through the new window-- gently falling fresh carpet of snow---crisp, fresh, pure, --

Now get on over to Mike's blog---ASAP !!!

There's a Hole !!!!!

2006-12-03T20:44:00.000-04:00

In our heads!!!!
What Northern Hemisphere idiots would replace windows in December---it actually wasn't too cold yesterday,,,,that's the good news!!
The bad news--- the %&%% windows don't fit!!!! It took all day to get one window installed, when the plan was to get all eleven in place-- so tomorrow mornng, we're heading off to battle with UJR in Meteghan--- for the fifth time !!! They can't get the measurements right,, the same guy measured the same windows three times, with different results each time,
they only delivered ten instead of eleven,
and on, and on--
the even worse news is that we've paid for them ---
the delivery guys couldn't leave them without the moolah,,,
and the temperature has taken a drastic drop-- But, I have checked with my new best friends at Mastercard, who are prepared to do battle with us in this dispute, and if we are not satisfied, it's nice to know the transaction can be reversed-- but first we have to go back , again, and find out what they are prepared to do---
and it was no small transaction!!!!
Lots of Air Miles!!
"U J Robichaud,,, The Amons are coming!!"

Check out Mandy's Pics of Austin !!!

2006-12-02T14:27:00.000-04:00

Isn't he something???

I take back my remark about ludicrious and inconsequential !!

Denouement

2006-12-02T12:32:00.000-04:00

de·noue·ment also dé·noue·ment (dā'n-mäɴ') n.
The final resolution or clarification of a dramatic or narrative plot.
The events following the climax of a drama or novel in which such a resolution or clarification takes place.
The outcome of a sequence of events; the end result

"an·ti·cli·max (ān'tē-klī'māks', ān'tī-) n.
A decline viewed in disappointing contrast with a previous rise: the anticlimax of a brilliant career.
Something trivial or commonplace that concludes a series of significant events: After a week of dramatic negotiations, all that followed was anticlimax.
A sudden descent in speaking or writing from the impressive or significant to the ludicrous or inconsequential, or an instance of it: "Waggish non-Yale men never seem weary of calling 'for God, for Country and for Yale' the outstanding single anticlimax in the English language" (Time"

Denouement, anti-climax ??? If this blog was a novel,
I'm in --anti-climax-- blogging blahs-
If it were a love affair, the honeymoon's over-
A sexual experience, the turning away-

The climax???? Ruby Sunset !!
The purpose?? Ruby Sunset
The fruition?? Ruby Sunset

All future posts will therefore be ludicrous or inconsequential!!

To Beta or Not to Beta ??

2006-11-27T19:54:00.000-04:00

I come by it honestly----even take pride in it-- my stubborness, that is !!
Still refuse to watch Titanic, I already know the ending.
Held out as long as I could on not learning how to turn that computer on-- until our school went high-tech, and a whole new world of computer literacy opened up---
Only got a cell phone last summer when we went camping- to keep in touch with an ailing Mema--
Necessity---
Hate forced fads--
Haven't bought crocs yet (thinking of it though)
So,,, what's with all this pressure from blogger,, whenever we go to dashboard,,
"Your new Beta version is ready.."
ARgghhh--- resist, resist, resist,
Convince me
What's the payoff??
Logic left brain needs to know!!!

Three Years Old Today!!

2006-11-25T20:30:00.000-04:00

My Aussie turned three today--- hard to believe the time has gone by so fast-- I can't imagine how we could have coped without him in our lives-----

And on the other side of the planet, in Australia,
Alex is celebrating his birthday early
due to the imminent arrival of newbaby Amon---
Happy Birthday Beloved Grandsons!

Never, in my Wildest Dreams.....

2006-11-23T20:13:00.000-04:00

Did I think the statement, "Wow, you're an awesome phys-ed teacher!" would be directed at me!!! And neither would anyone who knows me, hahaahaha
But today, it happened------
Substituting is kind of like being a grandmother---- to heck with the lesson plans, and let's have fun!! So today we played, duck, duck goose-- dodgeball--- frozen tag-- and the kids had a blast--And I get to be the good guy and hand them back to their parents/teachers for the serious business--
Was feeling pretty good about the day, until Jennah asked,
"Do you think you're still allowed to play those games-- they could be dagnerous?"
I think i'll just savour those words---- once more--
"You're an awesome phys-ed teacher!!"

Guess Where I've Been??

2006-11-22T19:00:00.000-04:00

A. Bracciano, Italy !!! Just returned from a whirlwind of activity at the wedding of my dear friends Kate and Tom---- As they jetted off on their private jet to honeymoon on the Maldives, I boarded Air Canada Rome for direct flight to Halifax-- i couldn't really tell you about it earlier, as I was sworn to secrecy---- actually, they did a google search for nannies and somehow landed on my blog--- followed up by emails , phone calls, security clearance,,, and I have been attending their darling baby, Suri---

B. Seattle USA--- the latest auditions for American Idol 2007- didn't tell them I was Canadian,, so my audition didn't go to well, but I think I'm going to be on the Jan,17 show of rejected contestants-- my fifteen minutes of fame!!

C. I just returned from Moncton New Brunswick where I redeemed the winning Super Seven Lotto ticket for forty million dollars!! No sob stories please, I've already talked to a financial advisor and the principal is locked away--- but the interest should keep me going for a few years!!! No mor substituting!!
Oh yeah, all those promises about sharing, with my beloved family and friends,,,,,, not gonna happen!!!

D. I've been sick in bed for four freaking long days--- unable to talk, barely breathing!!! at death's doorstep-- well maybe not its doorstep, but at least in its neighbourhood--neither the lure of reading your blogs, nor the guzzling of Neocitran could bring life to these immobile fingers---But the DM in that Robitussen sure packs a lethal punch!!! He says he forgot that I couldn't handle DM---hmmmm????

Windfall !!

2006-11-18T14:42:00.000-04:00

Last night Frank and I, along with Traveling Man, braved the fierce elements-- pounding rain & wind, to hear the maiden performance of Fireguy's group, Windfall!! They were great, a few minor kinks to iron out, but overall, a fine group of talented musicians--- I'm especially partial to the songs that Jim sings, and what a treat to hear the steel guitar played well!!

Unfortunately, Frank and I didn't dare to take to the dance floor-- it has been years since we've danced and you know that expression, "Use it, or lose it!"--- It's lost!!!

Since we don't own an umbrella, I put one of those grocery plastic bags over my head to keep the rain from ruining my "do", and as we were picking up Dad , Frank says, "I only take her out when she has a bag over her head!"

Anway, well done brother Jim,, and I'm looking forward to your next gig---- but where was Funnyface??

ESL and Stew

2006-11-15T12:11:00.000-04:00

Nope, I'm not cooking stew today,, but I've been thinking about stew, ESL, and connect the dots!!
H's comment about the English language got me to thinking-- way back to the seventies, when I was first attracted to the teachings of Baha'u'llah and his vision of world peace---
it wasn't just an idealized vision for the unity of mankind, it was prophetic and practical---
the vision was not of a melting pot, where all peoples become the same, no, the principle was "unity in diversity", whereby differences between us are to be celebrated---
much the same way that the flavour of a stew is enhanced by the uniqueness of each ingredient--- the sum is more than the total of its parts--- and step by step , the barriers that divide us , are eliminated---
He predicted way back in 1863 that the world would adopt a "secondary" universal language in order to break through the communication barrier----- secondary in that we would retain our mother tongue, but everyone would learn a second language-- the idea being that once we could communicate effectively, we could use language to solve the differences that arise between us--
He predicted that either a new language would be developed, (Esperanto was an attempt) or the world would just naturally choose an existing language.
Back in the seventies, there was no discipline called ESL, now it is a full-fledged course of study in most universities--English Second Language----and I believe English is the official language of the airways---- Not that I think English has been divinely ordained, more likely we are so inept and incompetent at learning a second language!!! Just look at our miserable attempts to learn French!!

I digress, but what I am trying to say,,, thank God for the English language,, because it is the tool that has connected our hearts-----
H, Houseband, Lizza------ to name a few----

So Who Won the War Paranoia

2006-11-14T20:16:00.000-04:00

My Canadian History is quite rusty, and this is so not politically correct,,,,but if the English won the battle on the Plains of Abraham,

THEN WHY,, WHEN THE POWER GOES OFF, AND THE TV IS TURNED ON-----DOES IT AUTOMATICALLY GO TO THE FRENCH STATION?

The French station that I never watch!!!!!!

getting together

2006-11-13T18:10:00.000-04:00

This was an unusual Remembrance Day-- Ususally the weather on Nov.11 is dreary, bleak, and overcast, ---much like the mood of the day--- but this year the sun was out, skies were blue, and Jason and his family stopped by!!
We walked the 2.5 km nature trail which borders Riverside Cemetery--- so we stopped by to include Chris. Even after three years, it's still a gut-wrenching!

We really enjoyed the afternoon--- except the stroller we started off with--- broke down----- and the "weakest link" ended up on my shoulders ---He (Austin) said his legs were broken!

Funny how they got fixed in a hurry when he saw the playground!!! and I turned into the weakest link!

Remembrance Day in Yarmouth

2006-11-11T20:16:00.000-04:00

Our Dad, Our Hero !

And Then There Was One

2006-11-10T13:54:00.000-04:00

In memory of Earl McRae,
27 May/1920-----22 Sept. 1942

Pictured on right,
standing next to his brother,
my father.
Such a short time between the dashes---
How sad we have no memories of an Uncle Earl,
or unborn cousins-
But we remember
Your valiant service and sacrifice
And the pain of your loss
Still dwells in the heart of
Our father-

Our loss!!

Jimi and Chris

2006-11-09T21:27:00.000-04:00

Days after Chris died, my forever friend RA, whose husband wrote his eulogy, phoned me to share a "dream" she had had that night--- a dream so vivid and overpowering she felt compelled to share it with me---

She saw Chris on a stool, with his guitar, face to face jamming with Jimi Hendrix !!!! Very happy!!

I didn't think too much about it--Chris had never bought or listened to his music, that I was aware of-

Until I went downstairs and opened his top drawer of writings---- on top----scribbled in pen on yellow lined loose leaf, an essay by Chris--"Why I like Jimi Hendrix"
Someday, I'll share it----

It's Not Unusual

2006-11-08T15:06:00.000-04:00

Flasback to 1969--- Acadia University--Seminary House, ladies residence pictured left----
Thursday night in downstairs television lounge--- gaggle of girls, waiting expectantly for performance of heart throb, pelvic thrusting Tom Jones----- swooning over
What's New Pussycat?? ---
Watching women throw their panties on stage,
feeling totally envious of their closeness to this gorgeous superhunk of homosapien male!!!

I saw him on TV last night-----

Am I really that old too!!!!
Some things should be heard and not seen---
brutal reality check---

Fire in Overton

2006-11-07T22:09:00.000-04:00

Here's a link to news about today's fire--Fireguy, are you in one of the pictures??

Pictures of the burning boat.

Demi and Chris

2006-11-06T12:32:00.000-04:00

Okay, so it was voted the worst movie of the year--- 1995 I think-- but come on,, there have been worse, much worse---
Just Chris's luck!!!!
His name would have appeared on the credits had they not cut his spoken lines--- as it is, he appears in only a few scenes near the beginning-- as an indentured servant to Demi Moore---
the servant with the looong red hair--- that's him--
my Chris!
If you get a chance , watch it, if not for the storyline or acting, to see the wondrous scenery---- Nova Scotia-- within a 90 mile radius of Yarmouth--- beautiful landscape-- and one beautiful indentured servant sitting on a log, with long flowing red hair---------

PS: Dodi Fayed was one of the producers!!

It's in the Details !!

2006-11-04T16:50:00.000-04:00

*disclaimer-- picture was taken from internet search, not actual student!

The good news is, there are only 19 students in the class!!!
(But fifteen are boys, no offense, but any teacher knows what that means as per dynamics)

Oh, and there are two adults in the class, teachers aides, to help.
(To help,,, yeah,,, we know that means there are serious serious problems in that class, and now 2 adults will be watching your every move all day!!! )

Oh, and one of the boys has Asperger Sydnrome.
(Which means they cannot adapt to change of routine,(substitute teacher) without a complete meltdown,)

And you'll have to wear this microphone- headset because there is a student with hearing impairments.

And the boy in the wheelchair needs to have all his written work magnified --- not only does he have spina bifoda, he is nearly blind!
Have a good day!

PS--- Lest this sound too cold and calculating, let me assure you that I have tremendous compassion for these children, who have to deal with their disabilities on a daily basis, and for the most part handle their challenges with courage and strength of spirit--- My heart goes out to them---- but on the other hand, I feel so unworthy and overwhelmed, with the feeling that they deserve better------and I cannot adequately express my admiration for these classroom teachers -- you have no idea!!!